TiK toK.

3/02/2010

23:55

I want to talk about yesterday. The Chinese had conference about celebrating CNY together in this camp. It's almost impossible for that to happen but it's not completely impossible. We just need to work together. I know I over reacted yesterday. I don't mind all of you to celebrate in temple since in temple, the teachers will help you. But, for me to go back there is 0%. I feel like crying when I'm in there, that place is not for me, I'm not suppose to be there, I'm not suppose to get involve in all this Buddhism stuff. Do you know how relieved and happy I am when I stopped going to temple? I told myself and others yesterday, once I'm out from the temple, I declared I cut all ties with temple and Buddhism stuff, I'm not going in no matter what it cost me. Temple is not a home for me to go in and out whenever I want. You all can say whatever you want, betray my own religion or whatsoever, I don't mind, I'm immune!! I don't give a damn to it anymore. My parents are not forcing me, why should I??

Yes, I know my attitudes very well. I hate Mandarin. Of so many languages in this world, I hate Mandarin the most. I can speak Mandarin, but I rather sacrifice my Mandarin with other language. I hate speaking Mandarin, I have no intention to improve my Mandarin. Ya ya, I am a Chinese and hating Mandarin is an embarrassment, I'll regret in future bla bla bla . . . I'm fine with it!! Anyone sees me mixing well with Chinese speaking Mandarin?? I bet NO!! Those Chinese I mix with speaks Cantonese and English. English dude!! English!! I've been practicing speaking English for the last 5 years. I'm not afraid of speaking English anymore, to be frank I expressed myself better in English more than Cantonese even though my grammar are all wrong. I prefer English a lot!! That's me!!

OK, enough of emo, I think I wrote twice about that particular topic. I want to say thank you to Afat for teaching me how to serve a volleyball. I can feel that you really want us to learnt eh correct way to serve, help Charlie to ace. It was a shocked you came to the girls side just to teach serve ball. None of the girls learn but me, well, at least I gave some reaction and now I can serve a ball. LOL. But, sadly, I'm not chosen, that's very disappointing. I really cannot stop staring at you, you remind me of my friend, I think. LOL

First time joining tarik tali, and my team won. WOW!! First time joining already win. It's almost like a miracle to me. My team mostly are in small size and still win. Can't stop thinking about that moment. We worked together and used out strategy, 1, 2 PULL!! Satu, Dua, TARIK!! Waaa, V-I-C-T-O-R-Y!!

Wafiy, you look super childish tonight. I love people showing their real laugh and action. I can feel the way you want to eat "apam" more and the way you went and take it was really childish and natural. I never see you in such attitude, even when you laugh. I can't feel the true sincerity and natural. But, tonight I can see you truly. The way you eat when you stuffed all the "apam" in your mouth and went to sit to gather up. It's so funny and hilarious but I enjoyed those moments. I felt happy when you got the same camp as mine. I don't know you at all. All I know is your name when I was in Form 3 but I dunno how you look like until Desa Rimba. We got to know each other more and got closer there and we became friend now. You know something, my friend said both of us sangat sesuai, Serene+Wafiy!! SHOCKING!! I want to see the true of yourself more, Wafiy!

One, two, PULL!!

Aki

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P:S: CY, no more superman show, OK!!