WITH MY HANDS UP, PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
This is where my Life of NS begins.
Disclaimer
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
National Service Day 17
Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 10:02:00 PM
19/01/2010
23:30 "Baca Wasiat" Day. I read some seniors' message for us. One of the main thing was "It is not all about winning but caring friends' heart feelings and teamwork". I wouldn't say myself having problem with teamwork but taking care of friends' feelings might be a problem because everyone here seems to dislikes me. Whatever I'm doing here now, I'm doing it alone. My favorite time is hanging with CY, Brendon, JS, Wafiy and the rest. They accepted and invited me in. This experience is the first in my schooling years. I'm happy and also envy, "How can they be so lucky finding each other of the same mind set ad thinking? But I never find one except creating Isaac, Charlie and Lexxon. Are they the lucky one or I'm the unlucky one??" I told myself to only speak English or Cantonese, I thought that would not happen but it happened. Anis, my best buddy ask me to perform "open sharing" in CB class. She loves it but she has nothing to share but me, I have a lot but I didn't want to share. I'm not one of the people that love to share my own feelings, thoughts in front of people. I love one to one but Anis, you are not the one. No matter how much I express, I just gave this feeling, you are not the one who suppose to hear this. I know in my heart, if I express myself, I will cry in front of the listener. Kien, you are not there yet. I try to cry at night but without expressing, I couldn't. I am getting closer and closer with CY. LOL. I must learn a way to get a good image of myself to my dorm mates and everyone else. Thank you for your accompany, CY and also 3 other bodyguards, Brendon, JS and Caleb. Secretive, Aki 23:57 |
|
|