WITH MY HANDS UP, PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
This is where my Life of NS begins.
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National Service Day 66
Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 3:42:00 PM
9/03/2010
13:15 NO FAIR!! NO FAIR!! NO FAIR!! HOW COME HE GETS TO GO BACK EARLY AND I DON'T!! We came together, we're neighbor, we SHOULD BE going back together!! Why aren't we!! Why must he reach home first!! Why he got to change bus!! Why he has the reason to change destination!! I'm not going to bid him goodbye tomorrow!! in fact seeing him is already an eye sore. I' jealous!! I admit I'm jealous!! Hearing his voice will just make me in bad mood. Now my heart is like being stabbed with infinity needles, blood couldn't flow, stuck in the middle of nowhere!! I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!! Filthy-spoil-brat-maggot!! Darn him, Aki 13:30 |
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National Service Day 66
@ 3:24:00 PM
9/03/2010
0:20 Home Sweet Home in 1 day, SHOULD BE!! Changed to 2 days . . . back home on 11/03/2010, result on that day itself!! Knowing result on 11/03/2010 is already scary enough, now going back on that day itself is even scarier!! I wanna change my destination to Shah Alam tomorrow but the possibilities are almost 0%. This is so unfair!! I already planned going out on result day itself and now everything is ruined!! That's first, second, I know this will happen although I don't want it to happen. I felt so scare and lost when I'm not going back with him. It's not like he cares or anything but the feeling is really insecure, weird, anger, hatred, unsatisfied etc simple enough, geramji!! It's like losing someone that is really close to you and not being taken care of the whole journey. Why wouldn't he cooperate with me!! Why wouldn't he tells me his plan?? If it wasn't because of the chocolate muffin, I don't think he'll tell me at all!! Ugh, I'm just being foolish here, knowing him as my neighbor here is really a bad thing!! Forget about that, I'll try to settle it on my own tomorrow. The same old topic is being brought up again. CY, don't walk to me and say "Eh, everyone thinks we couple, is it?" How do you expect me to answer that?? How did they know at the first place?? I thought only Keat practice that? Bad rumors do spread fast. And, I'm one of the victim as well. That chibi Daus and some Bravo guy who looks a lot like Zikri suddenly came attacking me yesterday night when I was having fun smacking Yen Siang. Fiz attacked me with Wafiy, Zikri-look-alike-twin and chibi Daus attacked me with CY, not being able to go back on 10/03/2010, taking result the same day as leaving here!! Losing my favorite 0.38 G-2 Pilot Black Pen (Hardly used it). How can my life gets any better?? Frustrated, Aki 1:00 |
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National Service Day 64
@ 3:17:00 PM
7/03/2010
23:40 Wira Jaya aka Jungle Trekking finished yesterday. Fucking terrible journey and experience. Never wanna do it again!! Glad it's only 2 days 1 night, I will die if it's 3 days 2 nights!! Lanyard day in jungle, Charlie won!! Charlie has officially pull down Bravo's Yellow String!! The torch is continued my Charlie. Who knows what will happen in 2nd batch?? Getting my ori-whitty-witty-white charger in the last day. Yay!! Been missing it for a few days already!! I still ain't able to finish IClassic videos!! Sad!! Home Sweet Home in 2 more days!! 1. Blanket 2. Bed 3. Acer Notebook 4. MSN 5. Piano 6. Streamyx 7. Window 7 8. Shower-with-water-continuously-toilet 9. Friends Here I come!! Result on the next day, 12/03/2010 What will I get?? Is DSLR awaiting me?? To be continued . . . Can't wait to go back, Aki 23:50 P:S: Now, I seriously got dark. |
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National Service Day 60
@ 3:12:00 PM
3/03/2010
22:50 The sketch was fantabulous!! CHARLIE DESERVES TO WIN!! If only I am Kem Terkok OFFICIAL photographer, I will record it!! IF AND ONLY IF!! How I realize everyone's MP3 are using USB port!! How I get what Wafiy was saying about my charger. I regret not bringing my USB car charger, IClassic sure ran out of battery if I watch movie on the way back. Getting phone at 12am. Should I sleep now so can chat later?? LOL I miss my ori-whitty-witty-white charger!! SWAP BACK WITH ME!! Missing charger, Aki 23:00 P:S: How to change my freestyle sleeping?? I just know my way of sleeping is so RUDE!! Too freestyle. |
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National Service Day 59
@ 3:07:00 PM
2/03/2010
22:36 HOT!! FUCKING HOT!! INDESCRIBABLE HOTNESS!! AIDS/HIV talk all day. Boring!! Since Form 1, I've been attending such talks!! Life is getting bored here, days pass by, home here I come!! SMELLY!! DAMN SMELLY!! I'm making so much use of the dobi, I refuse to wash my dirty clothes and socks. I'm such a dirty girl. Singular: plays, studies Actual: play, study "How to differentiate when to replace "Y" with "ies" and vice verse?" *eyes big* "That one I really have no idea, this is out of my power" *ROFL, LMAO, LOL* Stuck in my head already!!! All of us were trying our best, I realize how weak am I in grammar!! Grammar failure, Aki 22:51 |
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National Service Day 59
@ 3:00:00 PM
2/03/2010
0:11 Running, and running and running, How can my dad be any better? North, south, east and west Had I run Where else did I missed? Leg sore, body sore, eyes not sore Still have the strength to stay up for you and write about my same, boring day. My twin card pictures finally finished drawing I'm gonna ask him out on Saturday and Sunday to draw Hatsune Miku at DM. 51 cards to go in 13 days left. 2 days for a card and that will be . . . oh dear, I forgot my math. I'm still waiting for my final judgement. Still left Daos to apologize which is a good sign *Yay me* Cultural night probably cancel. Pity Anis and Iqa, pity me and pity Joanne. Last but not least, pity my Apple charger. They took out he USB and charge their own MP3 instead. Oh dear, why must they be so creative?? Good sign, my Apple charger is being used well, instead of charging Apple's product, Sony's products can be charged as well. LOL 26 days, Aki 0:24 P:S: People are complaining about my handwriting. Is it really small? I don't think so. Besides, I save a lot of pen ink!! |
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National Service Day 57
Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 11:45:00 PM
28/02/2010
23:00 29/02/2010 will be my final judgement day. Whether Charlie's marks will be deducted or me marching under the sun for 3 days. Which one will I get?? Why did I sound worry? I didn't manage to apologize with the teachers, Eiqa-paly got scolded by the teachers and the boys, all because of me. Paien and Najwa got scolded as well, all because of me. Teachers dislike me because I don't cooperate well with my dorm mates. My name has been called for the past 45 minutes and I couldn't hear at all. My attitudes problems are getting worse and worse. I didn't realize it last time because I know I'll get separated with them after Form 5 and start a new journey in college but I never thought attitudes can bring you down, dislikes, unfair and unsatisfied. Once I have these attitudes, it's hard for me to change it. W said something about L and HS, I know you were covering what you said but I have a heart, I felt it. I always deny that facts but if there's a final way to pull us back, why don't I try? Whether it works or not, that's another issue, at least I give it a try. I poured out my feelings on Anis and I really were crying just that I can't do so in public. I don't understand, you know how arrogant and problematic girl I am but why did you choose and accepted me?? Why did you endure with it?? I don't understand. Is this a plan for me to feel a lost of someone I love so much? I'm scare. I start to hate myself. Why didn't I accept the facts from the beginning?? Why must I run away with it?? I know my attitudes well but why didn't I want to change it?? Why did I continue my mistakes?? A person kept on her/his mistakes is because he/she didn't realize it but I did, why didn't I take advantage of it?? That message really awake me from my sleep. All this time, I've been sleeping and now I'm awake. Wise man says "Lat is better than never" One must make the first step and that will be me. Can I do it?? I would choose to terminate a border of dislikes/hatred between us than ignoring it since we will be separated soon. If I have a chance to keep a friend, why letting it go?? But saying is always easier than doing it. Apologizing to the guys seems to be hard to me, should I let it go?? Paien, I am really sorry, I know you wouldn't be reading this but . . . I AM SORRY. 2 weeks left to endure this is painful. Running away is not the best choice for me anymore, Aki. No more running away. Cried, Aki 23:37 |
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